"The Gateway Dyke"

I'm a gateway dyke, I always have been and I fear I always will be.

I should probably explain this term to those who are unfamiliar. A gateway dyke is a lesbian who is continuously approached by heterosexual and bicurious girls to experiment with.

Every girl I've dated has started of this way. Something about me makes them feel comfortable about 'experimenting'. It's like because I'm neither feminine nor masculine in my attributes or qualities, it's an easier transition for bicurious girls to test the waters.

While most of the time this doesn't really bother me, there are times when I'm very confused and frustrated because of it.
There always comes a time in every relationship when I have to evaluate the situation. On one hand, I could peruse this girl and hope that she is far enough on the bisexual spectrum to carry out a proper relationship with me. On the other hand, perusing it means growing attached and all too many a time I've been hurt because seeing a girl and dating a girl are to very different things for a hetero. And fundamentally, when it comes down to it, the majority of bicurious and bisexual girls will end up with men, in my experience anyway.

So where does that leave me? Well, I'm cursed to be in string of ambiguous and secretive relationships with girls until at some stage, one is willing to stick around for the long hal.
It's the curse of the gateway dyke, I've just come to accept that.